Memories of Mark

Today I deleted Dr. Mark Welch from my address book!

Here are the thoughts I had when I prepared for my talk at his memorial and wake:

First meeting; his endless energy and business
Trips to YOU events in Washington
        We both wore out in Oregon; pulled off the highway and pulled over beside train tracks; beautiful night sky with stars; scary train passing
        Turned up the wrong highway and got deep in Washington; had to turn around
        Stopped outside of Yakima with leaking oil; delayed for a couple of hours; missed a nasty wreck
        Dropped a transmission in Boise; Sky and others pushed the van; got to my parents’ house in shifts; got nice van and made rest of trip
        Drove separately; he missed the turn with Jim and a couple others; missed LeRoy’s concert, but helped a stranded lady to safety
        Tickets; I was pulled over 3 times without a ticket; he volunteered to get pulled over in Oregon and got a ticket
        Food fight at Perkins in Pocatello
        Was a good flirt and dancer at the events; tried hard to get me out on the floor with the kids
        Was committed to helping the kids have events at home as well as in Washington
        His driving; slow down, speed up, in lanes, out of lanes
        HOURS OF DISCUSSIONS OF LIFE, VALUES AND HOW WE COULD BETTER SERVE THE KIDS

Haley; no one was more important to Mark than Haley; he went through agony every time they moved. He even left Utah to find work in Hawaii just so that he could be close to her. I’ve never heard more hopeful and agonized sharing than when he talked about his Haley and his hopes for her.

Mark’s spontaneity
        YOU was meeting in a kitchen at a middle school and Mark decided one day that we wanted to have an experience of trust. He noticed that there was a counter top so he had us all stand on it and do trust falls!

        Jim wanted to go to the IYOU event in Missouri and even though they hadn’t done paperwork Mark decided to take Jim. They got in Mark’s car and started driving. Mark assumed that they wouldn’t be turned away (forgiveness vs permission) and he was right. On the way they had at least two interesting experiences:
        Jim, our good looking Marine, was gothic at the time. He was wearing a long, black leather coat. to add excitement to their day they stopped at Columbine for lunch!
        Somewhere along the way tension arose with the two of them stuck with each other for the whole trip; one of them got out of the car and was walking down the highway!
        
He showed up at YOU one day with CDs for us. He had just compiled some of his writings in a CD called Jesus in Blue Jeans

A couple of years ago, Mark showed up in town, out of nowhere. He had been working for the feds in Texas. He got in to his car and started driving and next thing he knew he was in Salt Lake. He actually stayed in his car for a while, but came to Youth of Unity his first Sunday back.
        He ended up becoming a dean at Stevens Henager College and was able to get John Daughters a job there, helping young kids (does this sound like a theme) to prepare for life. I didn’t have the credentials to teach, but he got me some cameo presentations and tried to help me make connections, too.
        Next thing I knew, he had shifted to online learning and was doing Internet Radio and other avant guard activities to help young people gain knowledge
        Our last meeting was at Religious Science; he had told me he had some promotion ideas for me; he told me about his Internet Radio program and wanted to teach me how to do it. He talked about the world needing my message and he could help me build a fan base.

DR. MARK; I LOVE YOU MAN AND MISS YOU. MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!

Emotional/Intellectual/Personal Development

I spend time every morning re-visiting my dream and making plans toward it’s continued manifestation. It feels satisfying to see my life unfolding according to my dreams. People talk about how ‘lucky’ I am, and I smile and continue to dream and ACT.

I am sought after, first locally, then nationally and internationally, for my ability to help others see themselves as God sees them. As I continue to see myself as God sees me it is natural to see others in the same light. It feels good to live this way. People see a difference in me and enjoy being around me. I am known in many circles, but especially in the LGBT community.

I am sensitive to others feelings. I speak my truth and speak it quickly. My sensitivity to others allows them to hear it with the love and concern that I have for them.

I start my pilot training and progress toward a pilot’s license, while saving money toward my part of a plane.

My Business/Professional Vision

Playbook by Choice and The Say Yes Foundation are thriving companies where people are introduced to and invited to remember who they are and take conscious action to live their lives according to that knowledge. As the founder and CEO of both organizations, I present powerful concepts in regular monthly workshops. The 15-50 people in attendance experience breakthroughs and are motivated to take action in their lives.

I grow the business by networking with other presenters. We market each other and share in the increased success of both businesses. I also market on a regular basis online. I mentor with Andrew Lock to create an online/web TV presence that introduces me and the companies to an international market. Laura helps me with my personal social networking skills. I interview and introduce a new person every month in my shows. I also introduce a new concept from my trainings in each show.

I am sought out by others to be introduced to their audiences. I am comfortable speaking in any environment and am always appropriate as I trust my inner knowing. I am particularly sought out by the LGBT community, and youth organizations. I help young people to know who they are and feel empowered in their life, right now.

I enjoy receiving pay for my services and money flows easily to me. People experience the value of my workshops and solicit me to present to their companies and organizations. I return a portion of what I receive by offering pro bono or discounted presentations to organizations that serve the underprivileged, especially youth.

Besides being sought for Unity and Religious Science presentations. I am sought to present at mainstream organization like Pride Center, Rotary, Chambers of Commerce, etc.

I present from my heart with authenticity. Emotions are displayed appropriately.

My second book, When Love Heals is ready to be published in February. My new agent repackages the first book and the second book and creates a marketing campaign to create awareness. I am the authority on love. I also speak on sexual addiction and abuse, but always with the focus of moving people toward true love.

I work with Angie and Greg to create awareness for the Transformation Center The synergy between us really accelerates the growth of both businesses. Christine is an important part of this and the four of us experience personal transformation and become instruments to facilitate the transformation of hundreds of lives.

I am financially free with $20,000 in the bank by August 1, 2011. I earn $100,000 in 2011 and Christine is able to quit working for the county.

My Relationship Vision

My relationship with myself is incredible. I am authentic and aware and live with consistency in thought and deed. Because of this personal relationship all my other relationships are positive and meaningful. I enjoy other people and realize the value that they bring in to my life. I see us connected and wish them well, just as I wish wellness upon me.

My wife, Christine, and I enjoy spending time together. We read and study separately, as well as together, and enjoyed discussing and sharing our discoveries and rememberings. I look for opportunities to bless her, to compliment her, to praise her, and she responds with satisfaction. I am honest with her and trust that she hears from her heart. I take great pleasure in learning from her and sharing my experiences with her. Our relationship is very much a win-win relationship. She brings as much to the relationship as I do. We both commit 100% to the partnership. We are incredible parents and are enjoying the empty nest period of our relationship, now. We always have things to talk about and look forward to sharing our thoughts with each other. We treat each other with mutual respect and truly want to hear and understand our partner.

I really enjoy being a father and take it serious. I gain tremendous satisfaction out of watching my daughters make their own choices. I learn from them when they make choices different from what I would have chosen. Often that choice is the wiser choice and I expand my knowledge by learning not just the what, but the why of their choice.

Angie is an incredible young lady who has followed parallel path to mine. I am honored to support her in her ventures and to learn from her. I love how she supports me and encourages the best out of me. She was very deliberate in her choice of spouse and make an excellent choice. I love and support she and Greg as they move forward together.

Cyndi taught me that there are other ways to get a college degree. She continues to teach me as she supports her family by working in the nurse pool. I’ve always liked Dave. I am close to both of them and am able to learn from Dave, as well as mentor where he desires. Their children are a huge joy to me. I love spending time with PJ. He is so free and able to be himself. He teaches me much. Kennady still knows who she is. I love hugging her and just watching her playful spirit.

Melissa is an incredible blessing in my life. She was the first of my daughters to get involved in Youth of Unity. She got me involved in church when I had gone away. I throughly enjoy being with her and her friends. She showed great taste when she married Cory. I learn much as I watch them make choices and live their life as a loving couple. Cory is a blessing in our life. Together they are great parents. Kenzie is a care free young momma’s girl. I love being with her and learning from her.

Julie and I were extremely close when she was a teenager. That relationship is strengthened again as I show her how much I support her, and her choice of Douglas as a husband. I see them working together and showing that love can overcome many obstacles. Her decision to let love rule her heart is paying great dividends in their marriage. I enjoy spending time with them, especially now that they live closer.

Amanda and I had great time in YOU. She is an incredible leader and is very well liked by her peers. I’ve watched her learn about relationship and create one with Happy that I admire. I look for opportunities to be close to her as she moves to Arizona for grad school. I help and support Amanda in every way that I can. I am open to a closer relationship with Happy as well. I proactively create opportunities to interact.

Jessi is the last one (little shit) and I love her. I trust that she knows where to get her answers and I support her. Paul is a significant part of her life and they value each other. I am glad that Paul is in her life and enjoy a close relationship with him and her. Jessi and I share some common pain and we share the joy of overcoming.

I am a good friend. I actively listen and support people wherever they are. I do many things for others without sacrificing my own peace of mind. I understand that being my best and truest self is the most important thing I can do in supporting anyone else. The next most important thing I can do is support them in being their best self.

My Physical Vision

I am a lean, kind, lovin machine. I eat food that nourishes my body. I enjoy eating and burning calories. I enjoy working my body everyday and knowing that it responds to my every need. I am attractive and an example to others. I dress successfully in comfortable clothes that show off my prowess. I enjoy the attention that comes from other people.

I eat regular meals. I start each meal with conscious gratitude for what I am eating. I take my time eating and enjoy the flavor, texture and taste of everything that I put in my mouth. When I shop for food I make nutritious choices and pick food that is both pleasing and nutritious. I enjoy creating meals with vegetables and lean protein. I use lots of spice and creativity so that I enjoy what I prepare. I enjoy healthy snacks between meals so that I keep my body stoked and ready to respond to anything. My snacks consist of raw, whole foods such as nuts and raw vegetables. I drink fresh water throughout the day and enjoy the refreshment it offers. I drink at least 1 gallon of water a day and celebrate the release of toxins that it provides. As the toxins are released from my body, I also release excess weight that is no longer needed. The excess weight drops off effortlessly and I enjoy the new body image.

By March of 2011 I weigh 230 lbs and have a 36“ waist. I enjoy getting up and being active throughout the day. I can sit when it is important, but I prefer to be active and moving. I climb the perch and am able to navigate onto the top and jump for the ring. The satisfaction is incredible. I now have the breakthrough experiences physically that I have been experiencing spiritually for decades. It feel sooooooo empowering to be in balance! I love that my physical body is in as good a shape as it was on my mission.

I enjoy regular exercise. When I come home at night I invite my daughter and wife to join me on a walk in the neighborhood. With or without them, I enjoy walking at least 3 times a week, and feeling my body respond to me. As I pick up the pace my hearts works harder and provides the nutrition that my cells need. As the blood courses through my body I feel invigorated and enlivened. By the time I return home I have worked up a good sweat and am ready for a productive night. By March of 2011 I have located a men’s over 50 Softball team and have signed on. I play at least once a week and enjoy the physical activity and the comrade with other men.

I focus on my eyes and heal the damaged nerve on the third muscle of my left eye. As I continue to send it light and love, I am able to see clearly. I even enhance the ability of my eyes to see close up and at night. I have the eyes of a 20 year old, with acuteness and accuracy.

I enjoy my health and value the body that is a gift to me. I treasure and take care of both and they respond incredibly to me!

My Spiritual Vision

I am a beacon of light in an ever increasingly friendly world of love and support. I also recognize other beacons of light and enjoy being around them and feeling the warmth and direction that comes from them. I enjoy interacting with everyone that comes in to my space and expect to expand and learn from each person and each situation. I speak my truth quickly, knowing that it is simply my truth. I know that the light and direction within is divine and is implicitly trustworthy. My words and my actions are always in harmony with each other. I do what brings me joy in each moment, knowing that life is about joy and love. I love myself and others, and actively forgive and see the best in all of us. Namaste is a way of being for me and I actively act from, and seek out that spot in each of us, from which we know who we are.

I speak my truth as it occurs. I speak with love and compassion (both for myself and others), knowing that the consequences will be perfect. I speak directly to those that are involved and listen intently to them. I feel the great satisfaction of knowing the integrity of my communication and my true thoughts. Other people admire me for speaking my mind, even when it doesn’t agree with their feelings. People enjoy being around me and know that whatever I say to them I will also say behind their back. People trust me implicitly.

I constantly find ways to support myself, my wife, and my daughters in living more closely to our vision of who we are. I support each of us in our own vision of who we are. I acknowledge the power of individual direction and ask question rather than giving answers. I know that each of us have our own answers within and the greatest support I can be is to ask empowering questions and assist them in finding their answers. My personal answers come quickly and effortlessly as I love and accept myself, and listen inside.

I fine tune my intuition. I trust my intuition. I act, speak, and play on my intuition and inner direction. I know that in the future I will see the wisdom of the taken action. It feels good to be at peace with myself and know that no matter what anyone else thinks, I am in integrity and am authentically who I know myself to be. WOW!

I enjoy my morning and evening routines and experience great peace and satisfaction from them. I take time in the morning for me. I spend at least 5 minutes in one of my joyfully forms of meditation. I feel centered and ready to face whatever opportunities will come my way today. At night, before going to bed I look in to my caring blue eyes and express gratitude and satisfaction with the day. It feels good to be ending the day honoring myself, others and all that has gone on.

I write in my journal at least twice a week and share most of those posts in my blog. I know that all of what I write will be of benefit to someone. All of my writings help me to think clearer and tap in to that universal truth. My willingness to be vulnerable and express my feelings serves others as well. Many people have had similar experiences and benefit from me speaking them. They also value the solutions I find. I become a beacon of hope for others. I like that I am able to help others. That being said, I’m also clear that my job is to help them ‘remember who they are’ and help them find their own answers. I derive incredible joy from seeing others find their answers, whether they look like my answers or not.

I am enough. I am grateful for all in my life. I forgive myself for erroneous thinking and playing small. I embrace who I am and play 100%. I am a unique part of the universe. I accept my gift and freely share it with the world. I love and accept myself as I see myself right now. I love and accept others as I see them right now. I AM LOVE!