Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Week 9 Peace and War or Relationships

Affirmation:
I am in High demand as I Passionately present the Playbook Series with authenticity from my heart.

Momentums:
1        When I feel the threat of war communicate my honest feelings and be vulnerable instead of putting up walls or attacking back.
2        Stay in Peace internally regardless of what is going on around me.
3        Identify something I like about 2 new people every day.
4        Find 3 people that I play war with and find a way to serve them.
5        Create at least one new win/win relationship that will help me move toward my 90 day goal.

I will write more about Peace and War, but let me just say this was another incredible session and will be an incredible week as I identify myself playing war and make a commitment to change it.

Friday, September 25, 2009

My Gospital

I woke up this morning at about 3 and had this great thought. It was so compelling to me that I wanted to come write it here and declare it to the world.

BTW, Have I told you all recently how incredible I am, and fabulous my workshop series is? I am and they are!

The word Gospital came to my mind. Initially I thought that was kind of weird and tried to dismiss it, to no avail. As I contemplated the word it was obvious that it was a contraction of Gospel and Hospital. As I considered my own path, I realized that much of the source of my pain was church and family, that with the best of intents, constantly told me that I was wrong! Most of my woundedness came from trying to be true to myself, to the inner light, yet finding myself constantly at odds with the ‘shoulds’ in my life.

For example, that faith promoting story that my mom and I told about my thumb sucking. When I was about 3 I still sucked my thumb. My mom tried pepper, a sock around the hand and all kinds of other stuff to help me not to suck my thumb at night. The first thing that comes to my mind today as a father is that I must have really wanted to suck my thumb awfully bad!

My mom came to me with her belief system and asked me how I could overcome my thumb sucking. My first thought was, “why do I want to overcome something that brings me such pleasure,” but even at that tender young age I figured out that that wasn’t the correct response. She talked to me about how I could pray to God every night and ask for His help in overcoming. The story is told of how she would sit at my bed and night and watch the struggle of the thumb. It would start toward my mouth and I would catch it and resist. Eventually, over the next couple of weeks, I overcame! My mother and I have told that story many times over the years as a faith promoting story of how God can help anyone overcome.

With all love and respect to my mother, that story has come to have a whole different meaning to me today. Today I see that 3 year old Mikie as a confidant young man who trusted himself. Every once in a while, especially in his sleep, he enjoyed the comfort of his thumb in his mouth. In all sincerity, his mother came, and due to societal norms, let Mikie know that what he was doing wasn’t okay. The additional, unintended message was ‘you are not okay, and you cannot trust your inner directions.’ Not only that, but ‘you can use God as a sledge hammer (in more polite circles a ‘Refiners Fire’) to beat the bad out of you.’

As I have worked through the choice processes there is a point where we go back to our earliest memory that led to the erroneous feeling that we are working on. My thumbsucking experience is the most common experience that I go back to, regardless of the negative belief!

When I first discovered sex and it felt so good, I remembered my thumbsucking! When I first fell in love with a young lady I remembered my thumbsucking! When I dreamed my dreams of greatness and had those inner promptings I remembered my thumbsucking. When I tried to talk and express my inner self I remembered my thumbsucking, and I stuttered, as I tried to force the words out!

Lest I be misunderstood here, I get that thumbsucking, per se, has no significance and I’m not ready to start a national movement to encourage thumbsucking. However, the meaning and interpretation I gave it are significant, and my entire purpose in life is to overcome that message!

The message I got was that thumbsucking was not okay and because I wanted to suck mine, by extension, I was not okay, and I definitely could not trust my thoughts. My mission today is to convey to those in my workshops and anyone with whom I have contact that not one of us is broken; not one of us can get better answers for our life than those that come from within; not one of us is not loveable and valuable, as we are!

Just for giggles here is my contrast. My youngest granddaughter, Kennady, loves to suck her thumb. I love babysitting her. The greatest pleasure I get is laying down and putting her on my chest, holding her as she goes to sleep. As she gets sleepy, you can tell because one of her thumbs sneaks up to her little mouth and she puts it in. Shortly after that she goes to sleep. Her body goes limp and she trusts herself and her grandpa enough to just melt in to me! I wouldn’t have her any other way!

Well, I’ve told quite a story to get to the point of Gospital. Simply put, one of my favorite missions in life is to help heal perceived wounds, especially those initiated in church, or in the name of God! No matter where I go or what I present, I will always think of my facility as a Gospital for those who mistaken feel that they are sick.

Better to honestly feel sad that to pretend to feel glad!

So, this Tuesday at the coaching class I had an interesting experience.We started working on a Choice Process while playing with Clay Dough! The idea was that the tactile play would be somewhat distracting, allowing the mind to feel and better process the Choice Process, without all the logical disconnects.

While I’m writing my way through the process, I’m creating a masterpiece in the clay. I choose a piece of purple clay to play with. I was kind of flattening it out and working it rather mindlessly when someone opened a tube that had all these bright color intertwined. Jamie even commented on how kewl it looked. I waited seconds and no one took it so I did and started rubbing it in on top of my purple clay.

My choice process was on my need to look good in front of other people. At this point I was beginning to remember times when this had been important to me. For the most part, the looking good was generally an over-compensation for looking bad (in my own mind) or feeling judged by someone else.

These feelings led to a sadness that was reflected by spreading the clay out like a low profile fried egg. It was beautiful with all the colors on top, but they (others) couldn’t see the insides to know how it felt on the inside. To make it more reflective of the inside, I started putting holes in it and making it look less stable.

As we worked through the process we got to the point of listing the negative consequences. At that point I picked it up and from the edges brought it together to look like a cocoon. Because the bottom was solid purple, as I brought it around all the beautiful color was inside and all anyone could see was the monotone purple cocoon. As we continued with negative consequences, I took pipe cleaners and wrapped them around it, to secure it in it’s present cocoon shape. I even left one at the top going out like a stem, so that you could pick it up without ever having to touch it!

Now it was time to release our creation, as it was also time to release the old beliefs into the vacuum making room for new beliefs. To do this we all went out side to a pre-dug pit and were invited to throw, dump, hurl our creations in to the hole, as our affirmation of leaving it behind. Most everyone really seemed to enjoy it, but I started feeling genuinely sad. Even though it now looked ugly, I knew what was on the inside. I didn’t want to let go of that beautiful ‘coat of many colors.’ I wanted to somehow get in and rescue the beauty that was inside. Well, being the generally compliant person that I am, I waited until last and then, somewhat reluctantly, dropped it in to the pit.

Next, Jamie poured gas in the pit, and in a trail away from it so that someone could strike a match and torch the whole thing. The fire was warming and fun to watch, yet I still didn’t derive great pleasure from torching the past. When the fire eventually went out, we started taking the shovel and covering up the pit with the demolished ‘pasts’ in it. Again, everyone seemed to have satisfaction in it. I waited until last and put a shovel full of dirt over it, then dug at the dirt, breaking up dirt clods and compacting the soil a little.

I went back in the building still lamenting, and shared that with the group. Then as we moved to our new belief in the Choice Process, Jamie brought out new ‘virgin’ clay.He suggested that we each take a container and create our new belief. As I sat their contemplating, all of a sudden, I got a smile on my face. I took about a third of my glob of clay and then turned to the group and asked if anyone wanted to exchange some of their color for some of mine (out of character for me to go out of the lines and even more so to seek compliance from my partners). When I didn’t get an immediate response, I turned to Brody and asked if he would share a little piece of his white clay (again, in my old world of values I never would have put myself out to ask for what I wanted; especially when I had already asked a general question and gotten no response). Brody was happy to share some clay with me. Then Christine offered some of hers! Before I knew it, I had 5 or 6 different colors and was weaving them together into a new ‘Coat of Many Colors!’

Instead of creating a flat fried egg, I started rolling the ‘new me’ in a circle. It became this beautiful ball with swirls of color throughout. As I continued to roll it the ball became extraordinarily smooth. My sadness at loosing something that I knew was beautiful, but that I had covered up, was being replaced by great joy at this new something that I was creating (in part due to my memory of the past, but without strings to the past). That ball and it’s greatness consumed me and I was finally ready to let go of the old and embrace what I had created. I brought the ball home as a reminder of who I am!

In summary, a really important lesson I have learned is the importance of feeling what I am truly feeling, no matter how ugly it might appear, and no matter how much feeling there is of ‘you shouldn’t feel this.’ By truly feeling the sadness, and admitting it, I put myself in a position of being able to move on to the next feeling and having it be genuine, too. Had I pretended that all was well and that I was glad to be throwing away the initial clay creation that would have blocked my true feeling and I would have gone on pretending to feel great (what was my original belief in this process; something about needing to look good to others). By feeling what I truly felt (sadness) I was able to feel a new, genuine, feeling of joy, as I realized that I could create my new image and I could use my acquired knowledge in creating this something that even exceeded what I had hidden. Throughout the rest of the night, as we talked, I continued to handle my new creation and my mood continued to shift from sadness and moodiness to great joy and satisfaction.

I would much rather feel true sadness with the opportunity to shift it, that to ever put on a face and pretend a feeling, that precludes me from outwardly expressing what is really inside!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Week 8 Tactile Choice

My affirmation and momentums for the week are:
Affirmation:
I am in High demand as I Passionately present the Playbook Series with authenticity from my heart.

Momentums:

  1. Time travel again with Passion

  2. Declare that “I trust my inner wisdom and I am OK”

  3. I will have a Guru Talk at least twice this week

  4. I will add content to at least 4 modules

  5. I will continue Shamelessly Promoting myself and the workshops


I have more I will write about last night’s class, but I will do it as a separate post.


Monday, September 21, 2009

What We Know Can Hurt Us Presentation at Law of Attraction Club

I did my presentation Sunday at the Law of Attraction Club. Frankly, I NAILED, the part of my affirmation that says, “Passionately present the Playbook Series with authenticity from my heart.”

We started with a little of my 12 step history and then introduced the concept of Confirmation Bias. We did the 6 Blind Men and the Elephant story and everyone took turns reading it. Then we went through the pictures and mind gyms.

I finished the didactic portion of the presentation with my series of numbers (2, 4, 6, 8, 10) and their task to find my rule for incrementing the series, through asking questions and/or offering an idea of the next number. We worked with that for a while and then Bill (the owner of Lotus Store) actually figured out my rule, “The next number must be larger than the previous one.”

This was all cool, but the really kewl part was ahead and it wasn’t even in my notes! We discussed that the solution to Confirmation Bias is the Scientific Method, wherein we create a Hypothesis and then test it. Frankly, the true testing comes when you try to disprove it! I pointed out that is your hypothesis is “Women are smarter than men” and all the testing you do is with women who agree you’ll probably never get any opposition, which could be okay, but it doesn’t really test the hypothesis.

I gave a funny political analysis and we all laughed at the absurdity of people only listening to the news that will tell them what they already believe and being in absolute denial of anything that doesn’t agree, labeling that ‘other’ news as bias.

Finally, I told them that I was going to get more serious and share the relevance of this on a personal level. I then talked about growing up with mixed messages. A couple really strong messages were that I couldn’t trust myself because ‘natural man is an enemy to God’ and that I definitely couldn’t sing. Those two things were ‘absolute truths’ in my world.

Along came the Outlook Power of Choice Weekend and I got the chance to test those ‘hypothesis’ by disproving them. I shared that I have spent years supporting my YOU teenagers and telling them that they can achieve anything. I shared about Taza coming to me and wondering if she should run for International Office. I told her that I believed in her. At IYOU where she ran and was elected to that office she came to me and told me that I, and me belief in her were a big reason she choose to run. I was touched by my power, but wasn’t willing to apply it to my own life!

During that entire time that I supported them and truly wanted the best for them, I believed that I had something to share and that that was my life purpose (but, remember, I can’t trust myself). I came home and kept doing IT. In January I lost my IT job and had thoughts that it was time to step out of the shadows, BUT… I continued to apply for IT jobs! Although I was able to apply for lots of jobs, thanks to the internet, 7 months later I still had nothing when I was at Power of Choice.

There were several things I did that weekend to test the hypothesis that I can’t be trusted and that I can’t sing, but the real crazy one was to accept the invitation by Jamie to get up and sing my theme song, “I gotta be me!” It was crazy. I knew that I couldn’t sing and that I couldn’t trust myself, but I got up anyway. The Monkey Mind was loud. So loud I couldn’t hear anything else; but I stood in the space and all the sudden the voices quit and the words came and I sang.

As I shared this with them, I knew I was about to sing and the voices came back saying, “You were lucky once, but don’t think you disproved the beliefs.” I shared with the group that those voices were in my head and they quit a lot sooner, and Mikie SANG, and he sang even better than last time, and he knew that the hypothesis were wrong, and eveyone there got it, not through my words, but through my actions.

LIFE IS GOOD; AND I FEEL BLESSED TO BE LIVING IT AS WELL AS TELLING IT.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I am a Wizard of Oz

I’ve been watching a series of workshops from Lou Tice of The Pacific Institute. Yesterday I watched the final installment and it really re-enforced my EOGs from last night. He combines 3 pieces to create the ultimate loving machine (my words). He suggests using:

  1. A Rite of Passage or Graduation Ceremony

  2. A One Time Affirmation

  3. The Wizard of Oz


So here is the background. Rites of Passage move us from one state to another. For example, a High School Graduation acknowledges that we have been exposed to a set of information and assumes that we have a minimal skill set to function in the world.



A One Time Affirmation is a statement of fact that has a high likelihood of becoming fact. I now pronounce you man and wife is such a statement. After that statement most young adults ACT like they are married.

The story, The Wizard of Oz kind of puts these two together with it’s own additional spin. When Dorothy is lost Glenda suggests she travel to the land of Oz and ask the Great Wizard to see if he can help her return to Kansas.

Along the path she runs into a brainless Scarecrow, a heartless Tin Man, and a cowardly Lion. When they reach the Wizard and ask for his help he looks at each one and continually confirms that they already had in them that which they were seeking.

However, he uses the 3 steps above to help them see that they possess that which they are seeking.

For the Scarecrow the Wizard said that his head was full of stuffin, but all that he needed was a diploma. By the power vested in the Wizard he conferred upon the Scarecrow a diploma and told him that he was smart. Based on that one-time affirmation, through a rite of passage, the Scarecrow went out and acted differently. It was in him all along, but it took an outside person affirming it before the Scarecrow chose to believe it and act accordingly.

For the Tin Man the Wizard said that all he lacked was a Clock so that he could hear it beat. Through the power vested in the Wizard he presented the Tin Man with a clock and pronounced that he had a heart. Again, an outside person simply confirmed what was already there present and the Tin Man went out acting like he had a heart. A one time affirmation, through a rite of passage caused the Tin Man to act differently.

For the Lion, the Wizard said that all he lacked was a Medal. He then bestowed upon the Lion in his Rite of Passage a Medal and with the power vested in the Wizard affirmed that he was courageous, and the Lion went out and acted courageous, He needed an outside person to affirm his abilities even though they had been in him all the time.

Lou points out that many of us meet up with the Wicked Witch, instead of the Wizard of Oz. We may spend a lifetime being told how un-capable we are by those in authority over us. Over time we can begin to believe those messages and act just like they say, just as the Scarecrow, Tin Man, and the Lion believed the positive pronouncement of the Wizard.

My goal is to be a true Wizard of Oz and to take every opportunity through Rite of Passage and One Time Affirmation to see the good in everyone and everything. I intend to offer a Rite of Passage and One Time Affirmation at every presentation that I do and in every opportunity I have to interact with another human being!

Another theme song for me now is:
I’m off to be the Wizard the wonderful Wizard of Oz
Because, because, because, because
Because of the wonderful things I does!

Another part of the movie that Lou didn’t mention is how Dorothy finally got what she wanted. This is especially relevant to me and is the ultimate rite of passage and one time affirmation. The Wizard offered to take Dorothy home in his hot air ballon, but through a series of snafus the Wizard left without her. Dorothy was glad that she had been able to help her friends, but was in some degree of despair because it appeared that her own dream was not to be fulfilled. That outside source that she had counted on was gone and she had no other hope; or did she.

In my version of the Wizard of Oz, Glenda is actually that light or flame that I talk about in each of us. Hindu myth called it the divine, placed deep inside of man where they were likely to never find it. Anyway, Dorothy listened to Glenda one more time and Glenda told her, “The power has been in you all along. Just close your eyes, click your heals and repeat, ‘There is no place like home, there is no place like home.’”

When Dorothy closed her eyes and remembered Who She Truly Was and Where Home Was, she returned home. The power was within her all along.

I feel that I’ve had the good fortune to be touched by several Wizards of Oz along my path and they helped me believe what already was, so that I’ve learned to act like who I truly am, not who I from time to time think I am. As wonderful as these experiences were, the ultimate adventure was when I quit looking outside of me and got my answers from within; when I truly came to believer, “There is no place like home,” and then went to that place!

I will continue being a Wizard whenever the chance is there, but even more important I will continue to invite others to become their own Wizard!




Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Week 7 Extra Ordinary Genius

Affirmation:
I am in High demand as I Passionately present the Playbook Series with authenticity from the heart.

Momentums:

  1. Prepare the first page of a Choice Process to take to next week’s class. Initially I’m thinking that it is on my need to look good to others.

  2. Delegate 3 of my 3 or 4 level tasks to someone who can do them better than me and enjoys doing them better.

  3. Strengthen my bond to my various teams (Buddies, Pit Crew, Spouse, Children, etc)

  4. Build my team of facility co-ordinators

  5. Create the specs for the website and workbook

  6. Be a mentor at this weekend’s Power of Choice


We created a list of all the activities that we do and numbered them from 1-4, with the following legend:



  1. Extra Ordinary Genius

  2. Good but not passionate

  3. Tolerable but not enjoyable

  4. Hate doing


My 1s and 2s were things like writing in my journal and writing modules, searching the internet, creating content, social networking, interfacing with prospects, walking and meditating. My 3s and 4s were things like developing the website and creating the look and feel for it and the workbook. My objective is to do more 1s and 2s and find competent people to do some of the 3s and 4s.



They described effective delegation as having 5 steps:

  1. Find the right person

  2. A well-defined set of tasks with a specific outcome

  3. A specific time frame

  4. Boundaries within which they can act

  5. Touch Points for follow-up and feedback


I’ve decided to delegate the look and feel of the



  1. Website

  2. Workbook/Presentation Materials

  3. Advertising Material


What was really neat for me is that I’ve identified my ultimate goal and life purpose and my two largest EOGs to support that.



My ultimate goal is to continue seeing myself ever more as the universe does and to invite and support others to see themselves, likewise, as God sees them!

My two most fulfilling EOGs are

  1. to create content and write authentically from my heart

  2. to communicate with other people authentically from my heart


Thursday, September 10, 2009

Another Example of Source Providing

Yesterday I received an eMail from Myrna. She had attached a half page flyer and a poster for our first workshop. I had just assumed that it would be up to me to create the collateral material (I’m still getting used to the idea that I don’t have to do everything alone or by my own muscle).

The flyer and poster were INCREDIBLE! She created an image of a cave that was super and her word-smithing is to be envied! I am very blessed to have people in my life who share my passion and help me to expand it by bringing their own unique views to it.

Thank you Myrna!

To see the poster go to http://web.me.com/thebigwiz/Playbook_by_Choice/Seminars.html

My first poem, The Committee of Fools and the Shadow

The Committee of Fools and the Shadow
by Michael W. Gifford
dedicated to Anne & Doug
and to my own Shadow

“Do this, do that, just listen to us,”
They cry from within.
“We know everything, and anything,
If we don’t you don’t need it.”

Thus the Committee of Fools has kept
me away from me all my life.
“No more you knaves…shut your mouths
I will not listen, give me silence.”

Out of the silence comes a still small voice,
“I’m here, I care, I’m you too!”
“But why have I never heard you, who are you?”
“They tried to drown me, so did you.”

“I love you…I know you had to survive,
but now you want more than that,
and so do I-I can help…please let me show you,
the other side, the embondaged you.”

I am your shadow…I am your power,
Unlike Hyde, I’m a beautiful bloke.
I just need air, and light, and hope,
Let us grow together once more.”

“You’re naked, you’re bleeding, your eyes how they wince.”
“I was left to die, but I won’t quit.”
“Let me nurse you and help you, how could I have left you?”
“You had no choice, but together we go…

Upward, onward, away from the past.”
“You’re beautiful, all clothed at last.”
“So are you as you wipe my tears.
I love you, as I knew I someday would.”

Together we go, my Shadow and I
Together in peace and harmony.
But what of the Committee of Fools?
Peace and Silence are not their game

While the Shadow and I go on our way,
The Committee of Fools continue to chatter.
But not with us, and no longer
Will they separate me from me.

My Passion for Life & My Mission with the Workshops

Alice Miller is one of my great teachers. John Bradshaw who talks about family systems and adult child issues quotes her extensively, so I looked her up and read Drama of the Gifted Child at a very vulnerable and important time in my life. Reading that book and then attending my first Community Building Workshop (CBW) with M Scott Peck is what precipitated my first poem, The Committee of Fools!

Alice talks about a system she calls Poisonous Pedagogy identified by a couple of primary beliefs. One is that the wife and children are chattel of the husband. The other is that children are born in sin and need to be disciplined and ‘made good.’ Many readers may react to that and say that that sounds awful but isn’t the state that they live in. For most of us, I would beg to differ. The religion I grew up in says it doesn’t believe in ‘Original Sin’ yet it is full of scripture to the effect that the ‘natural man is an enemy to God’ and their actions certainly testify to a belief that we are not okay without adult intervention to help us ‘grow up’ in the way of the Lord! My reading of Alice’s writings in this regard let to my belief in and publishing of my Healthy vs Poisonous Pedagogy Model in the back of our book, and the basis for much of the Playbook Series.

Anyway, in Alice Miller’s book, Banished Knowledge, she states as eloquently as I’ve heard it, my belief about good and evil and the state of the human condition. She writes:

It is not true that evil, destructiveness, and perversion inevitably form part of the human existence, no matter how often this is maintained. Bit it is true that we are daily producing more evil and, with it, an ocean of suffering for millions that is absolutely avoidable. When one day the ignorance arising from childhood repression is eliminated and humanity awakened, an end can be put to the production of evil.

In our Coaching Class on Tuesday, the biggest obstacle to us expressing our passion was a sense of judgment and proper behavior. There were comments like, ‘that’s so immature,’ or ‘I’m an adult.’ Jamie had us continually focus on being childlike and the more successful we were at being childlike the more we were able to feel passionate. As a society, we educate and discipline the power of God (being childlike) right out of individuals, making them ‘good’ adults.

My passion is to remember who I really am and to invite others to look inside and remember who they are too. I am a curious, innocent, bright eyed individual who loves to experiment and try new things; who doesn’t care how it looks to others. I love the journey and won’t be deterred or dampened by shoulds and oughts. That is what I believe is the natural state that is not only a friend of God, but God’s ultimate joy and desire for each of us. That is what I invite others to share?

I believe that having the courage to look inside for the internal flame planted by a higher source and then trusting that light to be The Light and living according to it, IS the way of Life! With all the pain and all the instructions that I was not okay, there was still a flame inside of me, and as I have turned to it and trusted it I have had increasingly more joy and satisfaction in my life!

Source vs Force

I got this quote on a list that I am on. I normally just read the quotes and go on, but this one caught my attention and explained exactly what I am playing with:

The Law of Detachment accelerates the whole process of evolution. When you understand this law, you don’t feel compelled to force solutions. When you force solutions on problems, you only create new problems. But when you put your attention on uncertainty, and you witness the uncertainty while you expectantly wait for the solution to emerge out of the chaos and the confusion, then what emerges is something very fabulous and exciting.

This state of alertness – your preparedness in the present, in the field of uncertainty – meets with your goal and your intention and allows you to seize the opportunity. What’s the opportunity? It’s contained within every problem that you have in your life. Every single problem that you have in your life is the seed of an opportunity for some greater benefit. Once you have the perception, you open up to a whole range of possibilities – and this keeps the mystery, the wonder, the excitement, the adventure alive.

Deepak Chopra
The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success

Thank you Deepak for once again explaining something simple, but foreign to who I have pretended to be.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Week 6 Affirmation and Momentums

I think the affirmation and momentums reflect on what an incredible night it was! I’ve added one more word to my affirmation and I think my momentum steps are the best I’ve ever set (and I’ve done some pretty cool ones)!

Affirmation:
I am in High demand as I Passionately present the Playbook Series with authenticity from my heart.

Momentums:

  1. Dance like know one is watching with Christine every day

  2. Share my passionate version of life with 5 new people this week

  3. Share my passion for my affirmation and goal (the why) with my support team

  4. Share my passion for Christine with her in words and action

  5. Write a love story to myself


This week is just beginning and it already feels incredible. I’ve used that word a lot in the last two posts, but it really seems to fit what I am feeling!


WOW! Week 6 Class really ROCKED!!

Christine and I just got home from our Coaching Class tonite and I’m on fire! This week’s topic is passion. As Jamie explained it, this is a compilation of 3 different weeks. We listen to the inner GURU, ignore and judgements, and risk looking stupid, inept, etc; that is PASSION!

Our main activity was to sing One Moment in Time with Passion. First we sung it as a group and did okay, yet we weren’t really in to it yet. Then he asked if we were ready to stretch and experience real passion? We were invited to get up individually and sing at the top of our lungs like we did when we were three! Mat started and really got us going. While he was singing the rest of us were clapping and shouting support as loud as we could. It was incredible!

Next, Robbie (Robert to all you adults) got up and let it go. He was incredible, too. After my two buddies had gone, I couldn’t wait to follow and give it my best. None of us would have won any karaoke contests, but we would have won biggest heart, hands down.

Next Coach Troy, then Sylvia, Christine, and Pam all gave it their best, while we applauded and cheered and shared in their success. Finally, Jamie went, at our coaxing, and it was obvious that this wasn’t his first try, yet he focused his praise on us.

As each person got to the “I want one moment in time” we all shouted it with them. What an incredible experience we had. Here’s what we were singing:

Each day I live
I want to be
A day to give
The best of me
I’m only one
But not alone
My finest day
Is yet unknown

I broke my heart
Fought every gain
To taste the sweet
I face the pain
I rise and fall
Yet through it all
This much remains

I want one moment in time
When I’m more than I thought I could be
When all my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I’m racing with destiny
Then in that one moment in time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

I’ve lived to be
The very best
I want it all
No time for less
I’ve laid the plans
Now lay the chance
Here in my hands

Give me one moment in time
When I’m more than I thought I could be
When all of my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I’m racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time
I will feel
I will feel eternity

You’re a winner for a lifetime
If you seize that one moment in time
Make it shine

Give me one moment in time
When I’m more than I thought I could be
When all my dreams are a heartbeat away
And the answers are all up to me
Give me one moment in time
When I’m racing with destiny
Then in that one moment of time

I will be
I will be
I will be free
I will be
I will be free

As cool as the Ropes Course was this was even better. I’m still buzzing from being there with several close friends, risking looking stupid or silly, listening to my heart and realizing the truth of those words!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

More Evidence that the Universe Supports Me

Yesterday I met with my bankruptcy attorney and give him my final payment. Half of that money came from a very unexpected source in an unexpected way.

Several weeks ago a dear friend sent her Mac computer to me to fix. I had it for several weeks and ended up doing a lot more than she probably anticipated. I actually purchased an extra drive, a powered USB bus and a couple other things. In addition to my time, I spent about $150 in hard costs. My goal was to fix her machine the way I would have done my own and to give her the best system I could create. There was no expectation; I simply wanted to serve someone who has meant a lot to me and my family over the years.

After I sent the machine back, as I started feeling the pinch of our finances, I started thinking that it would be nice to recover the hard costs. I thought about sending an eMail or something, but the predominant thought was that it was my gift to them and I would find another way to dig out of the hole.

Last week I got a card from her (about a month after she got the machine) expressing her gratitude, which she had also expressed on Facebook and elsewhere. She included a check for $500! I had had no expectation and even in my lowest times of doubt, at best, had hoped for the $150 to be reimbursed. By letting go and looking forward, I was served in a far larger way than I had imagined!

I am grateful for who I’ve become and for the friends that surround me and support me, as well as allowing me to support them. Life is better than I dreamed I could pretend it to be!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Week 5 Momentum and Affirmation

Affirmation: I am in high demand as I present the Playbook Series with authenticity from the heart.

Momentums; the first several are as a result of the ROPEs experience

  1. I will promote myself far and wide. Everyone deserves to experience the Playbook Series.

  2. I will continue facing my fear, making decisions and moving toward them without hesitation.

  3. I will take at least one risk every day.

  4. I will continue to write my experiences and share them.

  5. I will continue meeting with Myrna and develop more content.